The Vitamin L Diary: Day 3

Earlier this year I blogged about anxiety, depression and being on an anti-depressant. My journey continues as I go in every few months to follow-up with my primary physician. Drugs are not the cure-all, but they can help. I’ve told my doctor I don’t ever want to stop taking my vitamin L, but she reminded me that the end goal isn’t to stay on the drug but to make sure the drug is helpful and necessary.

Any who, this is Day 3 (May 2010) of that private experience. My hope is that “talking” about anxiety and depression might help someone out there take one step closer to loving & honoring her//himself. My hope is in Jesus. Treating my anxiety and depression has only deepened my hope.

Well, things started off differently – at 6 a.m. differently. Oh, and as a side note, the past two nights I’ve been a restless sleeper – waking up at 2 a.m and then 4 a.m. and then 5 a.m. This morning I needed to be at Wheaton College by 8 a.m. so it was an early start. I opted to wait until later to take my pill because I was afraid of being exhausted and sleepy on the drive home.

I took the pill around 9:30 a.m and that damn nausea hit. I drank water since my tongue feels like I stuffed it with cotton, but fortunately I’ve not felt the headache or fogginess. I am a little dizzy sometimes, but fortunately I’m not behind the wheel. I kept sipping water throughout the panel discussion of which I was one of the panelists. I hope I didn’t look nauseated.

The fatigue didn’t hit as hard, but I was a bit sleepy on the drive. Fifteen minutes with my eyes closed on the couch and then it was go-time with the kids. I was wiped out by 10:30, hanging on by a thread. I didn’t even want to watch FlashForward so you know how tired I was.

We’ll see how I sleep tonight…


  1. Helen chung August 21, 2011

    Kathy, I think that it is so awesome that you are willing to be so transparent and honest! While I do not have to face what you do, I have had friends who have struggled and it is helpful to me to learn more and try to better understand what they face. I hope you are able to have peaceful rest tonight and I will be thinking of you!

  2. Peter Ainsworth August 23, 2011

    I just wanted to thank you for sharing your story with everyone. I do think it helps to talk about your anxiety, it really helped me. Others should take a leaf out of your book too Kathy.
    I hope you continue with this and thank you once again for sharing.

  3. Scott September 19, 2011

    Excellent content! I will be back to follow your posts. Thanks for sharing this information! Scott

  4. psychosiswar October 4, 2011

    I too am on some mental health medications. It’s sucks to realize that you can be on it for a while. However, it seems necessary. Good luck in finding that balance in your life.

  5. Nelle October 5, 2011

    “..Drugs are not the cure-all, but they can help.” So, true. Drugs are only there to help and not to cure; depression can only be cured by you and you alone. For me it’s all started with the “willingness” to not be depressed anymore. Try this How to deal with depression on your own suggestions and see which one works best for you. Also do the things that you thought of doing (but you just don’t have a time-energy-money).. do something that you’ve always wanted like movie marathon with family/friends, bungee jumping and going on a vacation. Again it all start from you.

  6. Nelle October 5, 2011

    I also found this website very helpful in managing and dealing with depression in such a wonderful way. Hope it gives you magic like what it did to me.


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